auld lang syne by Barbara Darby

Alexandra Writers Centre Society

Alexandra Writers Centre Society

I want to stay up! Let me stay up! he pleaded
 
cheeks rosy with fever, a dripping nose
 
the foreseeable result of Christmas
 
 
more presents from Santa than ever before,
 
more solicitous relatives,
 
candy canes and cookies,
 
late nights and noise
 
 
You won't be awake at midnight, she said
 
you're so tired
 
comfort-tucking him in
 
 
everyone meant well
 
as they joined together
 
trying to help him forget how sad he was
 
for a few hours at least
 
 
I'm so sad, he'd cry, so sad  
 
too small for bigger words
 
 
She remembered how, years ago
 
when they were also young
 
they'd join with friends
 
set off fireworks on the old year's last night
 
smoke cigars
 
 
Later, when they were looking for security,
 
they lied outright to the insurance agent
 
I've never smoked
 
and he winked at them
 
Me neither
 
 
She remembered his face in silhouette
 
lit from behind by the December flowers
 
sky-bursting above them
 
blue and red and yellow and white
 
 
They saved the biggest and best for last,
 
tried to time them with midnight.
 
They shared a kiss.
 
 
Last year, he fell asleep on the couch amidst the revellers
 
and they awakened him to watch the fireworks
 
held him between them as they all looked into the brightened night
 
and tried to sing auld lang syne
 
 
no one knew the words, really
 
they just knew it was important to remember
 
 
She kissed her son and closed his door
 
crept downstairs to drink a cup of kindness
 
wondered if she'd make it to midnight
 
like every kid resolves to do
 
I'm so tired, so tired
 
 
sleep most nights eludes her
 
the other only things awake
 
the noises of unseen things under the bed
 
bumping in the dark against her loneliness
 
 
I'm so sad, she thought
 
and raised her glass in a toast to old times and love
 
 
she heard the fireworks outside the house
 
the neighbours eager to welcome in the year
 
making resolutions to remember old acquaintance
 
and she resolved to do the same
 
 
She made her way back upstairs
 
nestled against her son
 
under his warm quilt
 
and felt the comfort of his little, sleeping form
 
as he rolled into her alive with mumbled dreams
 
his father's son
 
---
 
Barbara Darby joined the Alexandra Writers' Centre Society (AWCS) in April 2024. Her poem, auld lang syne won the member-exclusive Many Voices Contest in April 2024.

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